Just a little nervous

I may have mentioned I'm am currently knee high in plaster. Thanks to myself and an unlit ramp having a disagreement in October I've been hopping through life with at least three broken bones and a fibreglass cast. Well for me tomorrow is decision day, whether it finally healing properly on its own or whether my consultant demands it does need surgery.

Personally I've been dodging the surgery route for many reasons. One of the main ones is the NHS seems to be so overstretched that my consultant had not and probably still hasn't fully read my notes. For if he had he would have known I have spent the last five years on crutches because of my back and haven't been fully mobile since 2011. But that was news to him when he threatened I wouldn't walk properly and I said well I hadn't in 5 years anyway.  There were several other red flags during my 18 hours emergency admission, like taking no notice I was in shock and borderline hypothermic, that I was in so much pain I was burning through morphine in 20 minutes, no one told me what I had broken and how bad it was and so on. But the main reason for all my issues was the NHS was so overwhelmed it couldn't take 5 minutes out to actually talk me through everything and instead tried to enforce some form of institutional regime on me.

The whole course of my treatment has been a bit of a conflict, to the point they have me on a medicine I researched only to find out it is meat based, and I have been a strict vegetarian since 1981 due to allergy. When I tackled them on it, my concern was disregarded and told I had to take it or die. Which even I know is bull, as there are 3 options medically I know of. It raised more and more questions in my head, would they force and Jew to take this pork based medicine, or would they just not tell them like me? Would they force a Hindi to take a beef based medicine?  Has our medical service got to such a level that any personal information or choice is secondary to their demands?

In reality part if this has been brought upon ourselves, by agreeing to do certain cosmetic surgeries because someone doesn't like their nose/chest/etc. Sure there are cases where a person is injured or disfigured through no fault of their own, where that is a necessary, but I have heard of so many people having unnecessary operations on the NHS it makes me scream. I can honestly say every time I have been in surgery my life and health depended on it.

But it's not just us individuals who are to blame. The management in the NHS is shocking. I know this because I grew up in the eviroment, I was there when the pattern of behaviour changed for the worse. Gone was the input from the people hands on in the hospital and in came advisors and management from the private sector, when that happened commonsense left the building. I have been witness to one in three light bulbs being removed, and people sitting in their chair with a dead person in the bed beside them because some one was on strike.

Since all this happened the accident and emergency room has become a pit stop for drunken idiots who think it's the norm to be the and get sewn back together at our expense. There seems no move to stop this either. By ridding the hospital of the power of the matron, it has removed it from the concept of moral common sense. In its past a matron would have the power and respect to sort the wheat from the chaff, thus saving unnecessary expense. Now it's all middle management and fear of the suing culture that has developed.

I have been told several times over I could sue for thousands, but that's not in my nature. The NHS is there to provide for us all when we most need it. But it's very existence relies on our ability to self evaluate, if you are drunk no amount of medical care is going improve you till you are sober in fact you are just hogging a bed from someone desperate for it . instead deal with your drunken state then if you are really in pain see your gp. Likewise if you wake up feeling like hell on earth see if over the counter stuff works first, a horrid cold just needs time and fluids. Use the phone service if necessary, I did for swine flu and was immediately treated medicine shipped to me and put on house arrest till my gp could deal. Sounds bad, well at least I didn't share it with all my friends. And yes I really did have it i was ill for 8 weeks, nearly hospilised twice. I dropped 3 dress sizes and it has left me permanently weakened with lasting effects.

The whole point is if used correctly the NHS should work for all, but because a few are majorly abusing it its working for none. To the point I am scared to put my life and health in their hands as they are so over stretched. I've spent 4 months so far in plaster and not once has a doctor made me feel safe or reassured by their understanding of my full condition. Ten minutes of conversation and discussion of options could have saved this but it's ten minutes that they have to spend on the abusers and health tourists.