My own private influence

Influences come from a lot of places and people, the usual like teacher's and people around us, from literature and film, from a piece of music or a leaf in the wind. Everyone has them and how we choose to use them is very much a personalised  occurrence. But from my last few post particularly, but always dormant,  I realise there are few influences I will never shake and by burying them I am lying to myself.

Now we are all very capable of lying to ourselves,  and the majority of do just to survive this struggle called life. But by lying we are hurting only yourself. Influences are guiding or warning forces in our life. They are meant to remind us what choices we have and the alternative paths we could follow. Yet so often we close our ears to the quiet whispers and follow the yelling voice like a sheep.

You may wonder where I am going with this and how it applies to the title, it's simple. I am more and more aware the harder I shut out a whispering voice of my youth, the more it is actually relevant in my life, private, public and creativity.  The loud voices I have always followed are becoming less and less relevant. Not just in the blatantly obvious way, but in the subverting and deviant way. The joke is this influence was one that scared me and freaked me. I was uncomfortable not just with the fact that this was even an influence, that it had any revealed to me apart from people involved, but now 20 (cough) years later,   I am learning to listen to the whisper of its real influences.

The needle that pricked me to this realisation is the fact I have found others have also found similarly strong influences from the same thing and they have acted on it, which has subsequently creating a greater good for other. I know I am being ambiguous about it all, and I am doing so very consciously. If you ask why I will never tell ad it could add a superficial level for some people and trust me at the moment I am very much not working on nor have time for the superficial.  Call me self absorbed if you want, I don't care, but it's the message not the story I want your attention on.

At the end of the day it's the whisper not the yell that will influence you the longest.