Is life random or run by fate

OK I shouldn't watch films like Final Destiny, I know that it always raises questions in my head. But I love that kind of film, the non slasher horror films so I can't help myself. This will make you laugh I can't stand blood of any quantity since I was a teen and had to deal with real emergencies and my own operations, I am terrified of knives and didn't watch a Halloween film till mid 20's and then I had to have a friend on the phone talking me through it the first time, yet there is some macabre fascination that draws me to it.

 But then this the same person who has a deep interest in the legend of vampires, I don't mean the Hollywood glossed vampires, although some of them aren't bad eye candy, I mean the religious and historic references going back to early Egyptology and the bible. Any way I am going off track back to the principle of the Final Destination film. Remove all the film magic and over dramatic story lines and the idea of visions for a moment and look at what the film is actually telling us. Is it trying to tell us, is it a case of no matter how many times we try to change our fate or destiny, it will always catch up with us and win anyway? I know we all have a life span of years, which are precursed by genetics, and these can be altered by the way we choose to live, but is there some greater force controlling it. Are certain events predestined? Yes there are basics experiences we can all reckon to have in our lives, born, nursery, school etc. But is how we deal with them exactly of our making, or some things like certain illness, certain happenings held in the toss of a coin or something more powerful.

For example we have all had our lives touch by some natural or unnatural distater in our lives, but how many times have we heard of the near misses from people. Like in the 9/11 attacks, most have us have heard of the story of the Duchess of York being scheduled to be in the towers at the time, but she decided to stop at an unprivilaged school on route, against her security advisers wishes. That in turn possiably saved her life. Now you can look at that two ways, pure luck, or gut feeling is the coomon way to see it, or you can say a greater power was guiding her it wasn't her time.

 I am not going to try and make this a great religous debate, I have read too much about toomany religons to belittle any of them, instead I am going to turn this on its head. Is this why there are such things as chronic illness and disablity. No I am not saying any one deserves the hand they have been dealt, but is it a test in the grand scheme of things. Do cerain people pull the joker card in their destiny. I was under this great illusion in my late teems and early 20s I was a robust child and going by the photos I had no reason to think anything was odd about me. That is under the GP I had at the time pointed out to me that having measles, chicken pox and mumps multiple times is not normal  for any one. Whats worse about that meeting was the fact it was pointed out to me the option of having the injections was not possiable as I have a cousin who was left brain damaged from them. I can't build any long term immunity to chicken pox even now I get a mild form of it every year without fail. That meeting was the first warning I had that my life wasn't ever going to be adverage, and in a way that doctor did me the biggest favor he gave me the facts I needed to start fighting harder than ever. Looking back I was weird, I lack the ability digest meat or fish including things like gelatine, a by product., with that knowledge the doctor gave me it was less of a chock when I devolped a more serious allergy to mushrooms and of all things bracken, It turns out my immune system is er unusual and it is genetic as my grandfather had it as well but to a lesser extent.But i have aquired other gentic traits, in fact I have just about collected every weakness from every possiable side of my blood lines. Its so bad my lovely physio to the effort to esplain how it has even affected my skelton apparently its like the top to the waist belong to a differnent skelton than below my waist and the gap between is unusually short meaning my ribs are barely clear of my pelvis.

This all very interesting you think, but how does it affect everyone else? Simple, this can not be a case of exceptional bad luck, basically because this goes beyond the riduclous. Why give some one who already has the odds stacked against them not one but three chronic illness? There can only be one reason to test us. What happens when you push some one to breaking point time and time again, they either crumble or they kick back harder than ever. Its the one thing I noticed in my friends who have their own conditions, the worse the condition the harder they fight back. The more fate throws at them the more they push back. Its almost a form of mental evolution because the physical evolution has slowed down. I think of the para olympians and the sheer grit and stubborn detirmination they have, a hundred years back they would have been written off, but in the last centuray they have hit back harder and with more force, proving that they can do as much if not more as an adverage person, heck there was one runner with both legs amputed and yet he has competed in the normal olympics and now in the para's. Then there is the race to recovery people who are out to prove invalided forces personal can still compete in mainstream rally racing. The list goes on and on its becoming the pattern in our society, we get new illnesses and injuries, and we are finding out way round them.

So how I prefer to look at it is yet life is fate controlled but its how we choose to handled it is the telling thing. I had a nickname of smiler at church when I was young, little did most people know I was already on my road of illness and such like, they had no clue I was being physically and mental abused at school, or that I was already creating a pattern of health that come back to haunt me. Maybe that was the sign I had be given a joker card but i had the stregth to not let me stop me even then. I know some where deep inside I can find that laughter back, stuff the fact I may have yet more surgery and enough drugs daily to start my own chemisty experient, I have beaten the odds time and time again and I am not about to stop now.  I don't think the greater power hat ever it is, is ready for me yet. when my time comes then it better be very ready as I have more than few questions, and please don/t tell me we are like those marbels at the end of Men in Black, I will not be amused.

For now the question still stands, and the aswer is a personal one, but either way the way you deal with is the same, so you accept the downs or do you fight back refusing to accept thats the best lide can give you or you can give life?