Insomniacs annoymous

Thank you to the friend who just summed it up in a phrase. Some of us just suffer from lack of sleep for no reason, others thanks to illness and the such like. Either way it is a lonely place to be, although in the last couple of years social media and all night tv have eased the burden that little bit.

But how much lonely was it say 10 years ago, before free view in every home, and twitter and facebook on every phone. What did this band of night owls do prior to these distractions. I for one used to run vhs tapes on loop and write through the night, the latter still remains, but what was there prior to that. Insomnia is a lonely world especially if like me you live in an house where everything goes quiet after 11pm. In some ways its helpful, for me on a good day I can get around a bit more without navigating human and animal obstacles. Although there is always a risk I spasm and collapse anyway. But today after the fall thats not an option I am banished to my 12 by 12 prison alone with just snoring animals and some open university program on the tv for company.

The thing is although I am not the earliest of risers I am still lucky to clock up 6 hours sleep and at the moment those are hardly restful with the dreams I am having. I should be returning soon to some normal sleep pattern and I can wait, the joys of reverse SAD has its advatages. If you know what SAD is this is stll going to sound weird, but my sleep pattern is at its best during the winter months unlike normal SAD sufferers. I become over stimulated by the long days soas soon as the clocks go back I should start getting nearer 8 hours of sleep. Well that was the rule until CRPS took total hold, now we will have to see whether or not pain will over ride nature or whether it will crash through the one routine in sleep I have.

All these thoughts spinning round my head makes me start thinking about those who don't blog, or even have access to the internet. What they do to vent in the twilight hours, when even the sounds from the roads is that of silence. I know it sounds odd but not every one is plugged into the world wide web or even possesses a mobile, there are such people in this world. What do they do ? phone some one up, or write a letter. That feeling of total isolant is still possiable and it frightens the living daylights out of me. At least I can tweet and most times there is some there to talk to, I am lucky enough to have TV in my room and at worse if the night gets too lonely I can crawl up stairs and wake some poor person up. What do those who live alone do.

I will happily admit I am an insomniac but at least I am not alone or annoymouse.