Empty page or canvas in waiting for a masterpiece?

OK it wont be a masterpiece, but you get what I mean, three times I have tried to write this blog today and everything has been against me. The PC is having a break down , the dog keeps helping ( his spelling is worse than mine), and I have my own issues with physio and DLA forms.  To be honest i nearly gave up on the day. But for some reason I couldn't, it was constantly haunting me, the blank page waiting to be filled.

As I have started putting finger to keyboard (doesn't have the same ring as pen to paper does it?) I realise I spend all this time talking to people on the net about everything from world politics to the frustration of day to day living, yet would I speak the same way, IE so openly in person. Probably not in my case, unless it was a close friend, the reason being its too personal, but there is a sense of security talking on the net.

That's a shame really because if people were as open off line as they are on line how much better it would be. Sure you get trolls on line but you learn to ignore or block them, in reality they have no power, but because of real life trolls people are more guarded I guess. Classic example is the doctors, a place I know well. I was thinking how it has changed become impersonal and people sit there in their own little bubbles. In a way I am spoilt, i have had the same practise for years, including the same physio since I was 20, so we get on in a slightly more relaxed, heck some of them came to my wedding. I know which doctor is best for ent, and which is best for skin complaints. But most of we are able to actually talk. Like the one I see for my back has just had a new baby (or rather his wife has) and so we joke about sleepless nights etc. But because of this relationship we can be frank about the problems and issues I have, I know well ahead of going to hospital what to expect what the possible options are and have already a plan for whatever before I go which my doctor will back me on. All because we talk to each other like humans, not clinically.

But then I see other people talk about their doctors visit, and I am convinced they expect the doctor to be a mind reader, like some computer who can scan them when they walk in the door. What happened to be civilised and talking to them. This works not just in the medical situation, but all aspects of life. In this modern world we want to know whats going on we turn on the TV, PC smart phone, how often we do we discuss it with friends or family? Maybe I was brought up old school, but from the time I could talk I was encouraged to debate with the family. By 7 I could hold my own in conversation, and its a skill I have taken with me. I was never allowed to miss dinner with the family except in extreme circumstances so conversation at dinner was daily. In a way its the skill I have taken to the cyber world, but I wish it was still available in the real world. It makes for a more rounded relationship with anyone in your life. You don't have to be scared of not agreeing that's what its all about bringing your own views to the table.

I guess what I am trying to say is that part of what this blog is, a point of view open for debate. You may question what I write or my thoughts and views, and I don't claim to be right. But this is my blank page and what I write is, well not a masterpiece but my way to express life. Blogging may be the new conversation, so lets embrace its positivists, and may be we can return this to the none cyber world one day.