It is going to be one of those days

Wonderful the post has arrived and I so wish it hadn't. All of it was for me and most of it is causing issues. First of all there is a letter to say I have been received at the MRI department and I will know in two weeks when my appointment day is. That is the start of the chaos.

The next envelope held pure conflict it is a date for pain clinic with the note saying non attendance will resort in me being discharged back to mt GP. The problem is I am not meant to go back to pain clinic till two weeks after I have had my MRI.. Now unless some one in Sutton hospital has a psychic link with the appointments department of the MRI and know what date I am going to get my MRI and better still which of three hospitals it could be at, this appointment is pointless. So I try to phone the pain clinic who according to their answerphone are there Tuesday to Friday between 8-4, so I phone today a Thursday at 11am. No one there just an answerphone claiming they are out of the office and will attempt to contact me with in 24 hours.

As I am typing this blog, I have just received a call from the pain clinic saying I should have my MRI date by now hence the appointment in 6 weeks, and could I phone the hospital listed on the letter from MRI. When I pointed out the letter I received isn't dated and lists two hospital trusts they ended up as confused as I am because according to the letter I will receive my date with in 2 weeks which takes us to the 1st of October. Then by their own words the appointment could be any thing up to a month which is the whole of  October so how the heck am I meant to be at pain clinic on the 29th and my MRI results there at the same time. Especially as there has to be a two week gap between MRI and appointment whilst my results take the scenic route between hospitals. If you aren't confused you soon will be.

The last brown envelop contained the dreaded pre medical form from my ESA benefit. You see after 13 weeks they have the right to send you to a medical to see if you are making it all up. The form is totally irrelevant to my illness in 50% of it and the other 50% doesn't even cover half the problems so I can bet I will have to go to the medical to show them for myself. Now here is the fun part I have to list all medical appointments I have in the next 8 weeks so that they can book round it . If I don't list a date and I get my medical on that date apparently the welfare appointment supersedes the hospital one and I have to change the later. On top of that on the declaration of the form I have to agree to the fact that the welfare doctor can contact my specialists and GPs and tell them their findings and if necessary tell them to stop signing me off sick as I can work. Now call me suspicious but how can a doctor with no back or physio specialism dictate to a specialist in this matter, but reading reports and looking at me once. That's providing I can get up the stairs to the office of course.

Stressed doesn't even cover it at the moment, I am surrounded by paperwork that is conflicting with each other and forms that are as relevant to me as arm bands on the Titanic. I am sorry but this is ridiclous and I have yet another medical to get through yet. The health system and welfare state are meant to fix you and get you back out in the working world if possiable, not drive you into a nervous breakdown.

Tomorrow I think Rocky can destroy the post.