Walkies... at snail pace

According to pain clinic (of whom I am still not convinced they are listening) I have to try to do the stuff I used to. So yesterday I attempted a walk to my local shops, with mum flaking me. Normally the round trip including shopping would take me 20 to 30 Min's, yesterdays time 2 and a bit hours I kid you not.

To me that time was horrifying as I used to just dash round and get jobs done while others thought about it. Yesterday I had to have a break half way there, and a full blown rest in a cafe before I could think about making my way back. It is heart breaking for me as I am notorious for keeping going when others drop and now I am doing an impersonation of some elderly person worn out by life. I couldn't believe how hard some that was so simple had become.

Also I am so glad I didn't have to explain the levels of pain and the different types I encountered during that walk, from the sharps acute shooting pain to the sheer exhausting aches of trying to persuade my thighs to even move.The easiest way to explain it all is if you have ever been to the gym on a mission and pushed it too far and you go through the wall and mix that with the worse pain if you injury yourself,  I had both of that going on at the same time. But the problem was it wasn't just one place or another it was constantly in my back and then the other pains kept occurring and disappearing all over my hips legs and anywhere else below the waist. Then there was the small matter of the pain and effort of lifting myself with the crutches.

All in all the walk was an experience no sane person would want to repeat. Well I never said I was sane did I and the plan is to do it again either tomorrow or Saturday, so I can have some mobility for future outings. That said my backside and legs are not thanking me today. The whole day has been most uncomfortable as the spasms keep shooting all over the place. But there is no way forward with out some pain. The problem for everyone is working out which is back issue pain and what is CRPS pain.

This is important as I can manage the CRPS and chronic pain to a degree, but the other pain is the part the doctors need to focus on correcting as that is what the crippling issue is. Don't get me wrong CRPS is crippling, but as a whole incurable, so its a question of adapting round that, but the back issue has a possibility of being treated if not cured which at least will reduced the amount of pain signals to my poor brain which is currently overloaded with pain signals. There is also the danger of overloading my body with pain blockers as these have other affects on me. Making me think I can do more faster than I really can, and then I pay for days after, and in my case killing any interest in food and I mean any interest. I have been known to go all day not eating at all on them which isn't healthy for anyone.

So anyway I made it, I went walkies, but I am sure there was a snail overtaking me at one point.