Finally sanity restored

Thank goodness for that everyone bar me has exhausted themselves, human, canine and feline alike are in the land of nod. For once I can't say I am not grateful.

Its been a long day with everyone not necessarily getting on each others nerves as much as getting on mine. Whether it be for the fact I am tired and sore from the previous days activities or just the obvious change of season I don't know and truly don't care, but I am relived I am sitting typing in the near quiet of the night. The noise of the TV and occasional thump of a dreaming cat are my only company and finally I can get my head round the chaos of the day. Although to be perfectly frank things haven't changed.

I am still waiting for another call from the hospital sorting out my appointments and so on, and I am still facing filling in that daft form with only half the information as the tests won't be complete till weeks after the date it is required in. Seriously I really wish department of the DH SS would talk to each other and better still listen to what the over worked specialists of the NHS tell them. It would take massive amounts of stress of those who are genuinely ill and safe the entire welfare budget millions I imagine. Money that seriously could be spent on far more important things.

Having read endless articles on how the disabled and long term sick have to fight to get even acceptance of their illness, I have now become one of these statistics and trust me it sucks. Bur that's the reality I face with many others, making sure I fight to prove the reality of the illness. I unfortunately have been blessed with two highly suspected illnesses. Back injuries are the notorious ground which people in the past have abused the system with and CRPS is so much an unknown entity that anyone who isn't up to date on the research is going to be completely lost. So fight I will if nothing else to ease the way for those who come after me with them.

In the mean time I am enjoying the peace and quiet of a sleeping house and trying not to disturb it with the whimpers and screams every spasm is trying to create. Instead I am trying to work out the logic of my free view box and why when I re tune it the first channels it chooses to find are the adult channels that are never used in this house. That's one of the modern world conundrums why there are so many assumptions and we choose to accept them. Why do we accept every one elses opinion on matters of state and welfare, why do we not question the wonderful governments mistreatment of the sick and elderly, why do we not revolt like we would have 100 years ago? Yes my sanity is restored I am now planning my next personal revolution, to prove that CRPS and Chronic back pain are not in a persons head but real illnesses.